I don't want to live in my present.
Someday and Once are the two most
important ideas in my World at this moment. They're like consolation
prizes for my present which really isn't what I want it to be. In
fact, according to my re-imagined memories and future fantasies, my
present is the opposite of everything I've ever wanted or want. This
can't possibly be if my thoughts become things unless youthful plans
were just fears in disguise.
But I do believe thoughts become
things.
Here are some thoughts on my present
I think I have a real future in comic
strips. I've secretly always wanted to pair my thoughts with
illustrations
I wake up in the most frightening
state imaginable, but live a really fantastic life as soon as I get
to work and shut off my present
I think my ideas are better than
they've ever been, however I completely lack concentration and
energy. Mostly, they are matured ideas I wasn't ready for when they
first appeared
I'm developing the idea of
“redefinition” slightly different from rationalizing in that
outcomes are adapted to be the best possible given the circumstances
My present is plain tiring and
frustrating. Trying to find energy be focusing on creating only
works for a short while then I need rest and time.
