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Saturday, December 28, 2019
The Fly
For the last two years, I've struggled with a corrosive environment, inside and out, that has made writing this impossible. Until I can escape it, I won't be posting.
Saturday, December 7, 2019
A Christmas Carol
Failure is the opportunity to start
again with more knowledge. -J. Sklep
I think lots of people have said that
in one way or another. None on a mug or tasteful neck tattoo, but
here's a fun fact speaking of necks: No one wants to suck on your
ex-boyfriend's name.
Other than not getting a tattoo, here's
what not to do—embrace a mistake. Examine it, learn from it, then bury
it. Bury it so deep no future can excavate it and then plant a tree
upon it, I don't do that. I wrap my whole soul around a mistake,
and make it the symbol of my life. When really all it should amount
to is the elimination of what doesn't work so what does work can be
more easily found.
Here's a mistake I revisit, and never
quite learn: I can't write and listen to anything with words.Yet , I
continue trying while listening to the greatest possible distraction.
Saturday, November 23, 2019
Happy Thanksgiving
There's no lonelier feeling than sittiing at Thanksgiving dinner, surrounded by family, knowing you have nothing in common with any of them.
Saturday, November 9, 2019
More Sock Puppets--I Guess
If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal, not to people or objects. — Albert Einstein
It's hard to be happy when you can't
put on your socks. I wouldn't have guessed it, and no one has
written a book about it, but it's true. It starts your every day
with a simple task fail. Great.
And your shoes slow rot.
Dramatic effect intended. Not that the
smell of Nike necrosis wouldn't have tipped you off to my problem.
But how, you wonder, did this happen?
I attached my back to the happiness of
others and let them have their way with it--for money. Not even a
lot of money, barely money to keep me lubed and ibuprofened enough to
keep showing up. In pursuit of their goals, or their boss's goal, or
their boss's mother's goal, but never in the pursuit of mine, Life
requires money and money is sold time, I get it. But the question I
should have asked a long time ago is: How much of life am I willing
to sell? How much damage to me for lunch money? Apparently,
needing forceps and a rolled up magazine to pull on socks worth.
This is several blogs ago news now, however the lack of a workable
solution keeps it topical on Planet JOHN.
There is a simmering hope out there in
the form of discontent salted with anger. If I were happy with my
life right now, I would be worried about me right now. Fact is
channeling discontent keeps me up at night wondering why I'm not
awake and going forward. That's positive.
And you know what else is positive? My
Zazzle store. They handle production and shipping while PayPal
handles the money. The only solution I can see at the moment. Let's
hope it's a good one.
Saturday, October 26, 2019
It's a Gift
Writer's Note: Between battling
bouts of leprosy and melancholia, I wrote notes for what was to be
today's blog. The notes worked better than the mishmoshing I titled
“10262019blog.”
Dream is not a bad word. Dream is not
a word reserved for the naive. Dream is the first word to
happiness. Dream is the seed of innovation. Dream is why you can't
sleep. Dream is breath. Dream is a parachute when life crashes.
Dream is why you are here.
I'd hate to die without ever having done what I was born to do. What if the only thing you've ever wanted to do scares your parents? your teachers? What if the thing you were born to do is so far out of their experience they smirk because they can't comprehend? Find a role model on the internet, preferably a successful one.
Live for “why” not “how.” Know what your dream is and why it must happen, not how it must happen. Work towards it every day every day every day every day. Know your gift and give it every day.
Be thankful.
Saturday, October 12, 2019
Guilt is a Sucking Feeling
In the last month, I've figured out a
lot about life. Mostly, how to get the things I really want, however
now that I understand the process I feel guilty when I don't invest
every energy into making it work.
I anticipated super results, and I'm
okay with super results, but the guilt was a surprise.
Guilt is taking your mother on your
honeymoon so she won't feel left out. Guilt is taking a warm mud
bath in quicksand. Guilt is the octopus you keep in your underwear
because otherwise those silk boxers are too darned comfortable, or.
. .
Maybe guilt is the stick to happiness'
carrot?
If it is then there can be no joy in
the process or the result. “I understand the process part, but why
the result?” said ThisIsYou talking. Because instead of admiring
your achievement, you'll only be glad it's over. You were going to
figure that out, but I wanted you to ponder something much darker
which is: I have a job counting houses. Yep, envy me.
I have a job, and that's a good thing,
but I now view every house counted, every second explaining why I
count houses, to be wasted life. I feel guilty for not applying my
new found knowledge to achieving my dreams, but I'd feel guilty for
not working, too.
Maybe, I'm transitioning from necessity
to only doing what I love? Applying my new found knowledge, I'll
give the transition two more weeks and then I'll only make money
doing what I love.
Saturday, September 28, 2019
What Was Once A Puzzle Is Now Just Pieces
It
all seemed so simple in the brochure. Eat your vegetables, do what
you're told, go to school, get a job, and life would be smooth.
Basically, they told us to embrace our inner cow and the World would
curl up in our laps. Not so much.
Seems
like they issued the puzzle with a couple pieces missing. Happiness
comes to mind and so does freedom of choice. What if I didn't want
to wear a suit to support the three kids I didn't want either? I
struggled with “supposed to” and “want to” for years. Just
ask my ulcers, they'll tell you. But the reality is no law- physical
or biblical-says you can't be a responsible, productive person doing
what makes you happy. Do you know what that means for us? We can
choose to do what makes us happy and still be responsible adults.
Wow!
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